A Fish Out of Water? Not This GIRL!!!

Hi Cyberfriends! I am really consistent about being inconsistent. Holy March?! That was a long time ago. It's nearly the end of summer and what have I been doing? A lot of stuff! Too many things to recap right now. We did manage to finally take a family vacation. Shock. I know. We went to California and Disneyland and it was awesome! I will get some pictures loaded up this weekend. Let's talk about the here and now. Sister and I are working on starting up a new fitness challenge. Hooray because I have not fallen but plummetted off the wagon. Oh my. Before Cali I was doing so well and my clothes were even feeling looser. Now I have not only gained back that weight but then some. GRRRR. Why is this so hard?! I don't know. It just is. Sugar is in my blood. BUT...I'm really excited for this new fitness challenge. It will help me get ready for the dreaded holidays, only dreaded because there's so many wonderful things to bake and I love to bake. As part of my fitness challenge, I'm very excited to be back to lap swimming. It is AMAZING!! I can't tell you enough how awesome swimming is; it is my favorite form of exercise, along with Pilates. And as much as I love Pilates, I love swimming even more! I just need to master the weakness I have for eating and not just sweets but the role they play in my emotions. Too many sleepless nights render a big, fat Coke sitting on my work desk the next morning. Bad habits, so hard to break. Really they aren't; it's just so easy to revert back to them. Why, when one tiny little mishap pushes me out of my normal routine do I go running for comfort to the sweet nectar or chewy Nib? I don't know. If I did, I wouldn't be severly overweight. Meh. Keith and I are making a goal to lose 30 lbs by the end of this year. That will leave me to finish off the rest next year and I KNOW I can do this. I just need some motivation and something to keep me accountable. I need to tell myself I'm worth the effort to change. Isn't that really what it is all about? Not how much I love food, but to change, really change, for the better. Whatever it is I am holding onto, I need to let go. So, I begin my journey again. Time to dust off the film of deniability that is my blog. I Can do this. I WILL do this. There are exactly 145 more days in this year, starting tomorrow. That is just under 5 lbs a month. The Fitness Challenge starts on Monday, August 19th. This is SO doable. Follow my progress on here and help me stay motivated. In turn, I will try and motivate you towards your own personal goals as well!